Looking for things you don't want to find...

     I think everyone has done it, more now than ever. Technology makes it so easy to swim in your past. You think of someone that once made you angry. A lover, an Ex-husband, a used to be best friend that still owes you money. You get the idea. Then you feel like you hit the jack pot when you stumble across new information about people you tell yourself you have put out of your life. A picture, or a news article, and then BOOM Your moment of joy becomes a moment of sadness drenched in anger or remorse.
   I don't know if this is exclusive to women, but I doubt it. I do think women are more likely to really get deep into it though. I have heard the saying "A jealous woman can do better investigating than a FBI agent."
I believe that to be true. Why do we waste our time doing this to ourselves?  I'm guilty of it.  Many more times than I am willing to admit. I wish when we move on from people , we did actually move on. There are moments when we feel like we do, but even if it takes years, it creeps back in.
    I wonder if we expect the person we are stalking to have some how stayed in place, right where we left them? There would be some pleasure in that I think. So do we ever really let go of someone? Is that actually possible? Does the internet and social media make that harder?